You ain't as green as you are young

a lot of melancholy I'm feeling.
I keep reminding myself that this is my life, this is it. I need to analyze every aspect of my life for what it is, what I might be missing or taking for granted, or what I will someday miss. I am so unsettled, although I don't ever remember being fully content. There's always been something on the other side of the hill. It's a lot of procrastination, fear of the unknown.


I supposed I could collect my books and get on back to school.
Or steal my Daddy's cue and make a living outta playing pool.

Are you living or are you existing

If you feel like you need a change but you never surrender then that feeling will eat you alive. The things you regret are the things you never do.

I need to start scrap booking and writing again. my mind races.

Humans are not meant to live like this
Everyone is so fucking confused.
I would be okay living in a Cabin by the water, waking up and feeding my animals, growing my own food.

in other news, Christmas was lovely. I have such an amazing, loving family.
I cannot put into words how lucky I am and how much they mean to me.