Life as we don't know it.

1. You will receive a body
2. You will be presented with lessons
3. There are no mistakes, only lessons
4. A lesson is repeated until learned
5. Learning does not end
6. "There" is no better than "here"
7. Others are only mirrors of you
8. What you make of your life is up to you
9. All your answers lie inside of you
10. You will forget all of this at birth.

There are points in this to which I understand but will not yet follow. not because I don't believe them but because I have not yet experienced them for myself.
So let's begin.

Held by lips

I contemplated telling you that I still Crave you like the nicotine, the smoke once drawn into my lungs. heart pounding. pump you through me You're half habit and half addiction.
Love to hate the irony of desiring what only harms me.
Consider the striking resemblance between you and the hot ember that burns my craving away. Temporary. You were comforting like that, rather an object of subtle distraction.
Held by lips, satisfaction, briefly. You used to tease me with impermanent bliss. "always leave you wanting more"
I can never seem you keep you here, though four inch heels couldn't rub you out. Surely we used eachother. you're always tugging at my mind, smoke and mirrors.
I could quit anytime...

have you ever seen the rain

I woke up to rain this morning, To the the smell and the way it sounds.
I love Rain at nighttime. Maybe early morning when you can just make out the shapes of the trees. sometimes I miss sitting under the awning when it's raining, overcast so dark and having a cigarette. When it rains it pours, sometimes so much that when I'm dancing through the field I can hardly see what's in front of me. metephorically speaking, maybe it's better that way.